My heart is struggling to keep itself locked away. Its holding tight to its chains but you are pulling it free…with tears in its eyes its hoping that you can…that you will.
How do you stop your heart spiralling into love when you know the one you love could be gone faster then you can comprehend? How do you mend the break before it happens? How do you forgive a world that is tearing you apart or how do you accept promises that will take the one you cherish away from you? How do you forget a person who is perfect even in his flaws? How do you pick yourself up when you feel no strength or life left?
I cant leave you go. Music is sweeter with you. Food is more life giving. Adventure is more thrilling. Peace is real. Tears fall faster and my heart cant believe its over just as it accepts you.
I pray if this ends I find strength like ive never known before for its impossible to recover from someone who has never hurt you, never left you fall, taught you what kindness is and made you believe in love.
Maybe it wont be me that comes out of the flames. Maybe im not supposed to get back up this time.
Showing posts with label broken heart. Show all posts
Showing posts with label broken heart. Show all posts
4 August 2011
1 December 2009
There is always one.
Written 29/11/09
I can't see through the tears,
I don't know why I'm even brushing my teeth.
Am i getting myself ready to be presented to God?
My minds screaming and wailing in pain.
I don't even want to stop crying anymore.
It just happens. The stabbing pain in my gut just keeps throbbing, keeps my breath breaking.
I can't see my face in the mirror, the tears blind me,
but my hands still find the soap.
They still gently wash my tear soaked face with soft, warming water.
They still search for and find the towel to dab my face dry before the tears soak it again.
My blind eyes cant even see my glasses but my steady hands always find them.
My mind shakes uncontrollably, my breath comes in painful sobs but my legs stand strong.
My hands dress me, ready for sleep.
My fingers turn on and off lights.
My legs guide me to bed.
My eyes always releasing their tears.
My hands take the bobble down and smooth my hair around my face.
They pull the covers over my body and hide me away.
Now i can cry into my pillow as my knees curl up to my chest, my arms covering my breaking heart. Protecting, stopping me from falling apart.
My mind maybe screaming, my heart feels as if its dieing but my body keeps going.
"There is always one part of you that can keep going."
I can't see through the tears,
I don't know why I'm even brushing my teeth.
Am i getting myself ready to be presented to God?
My minds screaming and wailing in pain.
I don't even want to stop crying anymore.
It just happens. The stabbing pain in my gut just keeps throbbing, keeps my breath breaking.
I can't see my face in the mirror, the tears blind me,
but my hands still find the soap.
They still gently wash my tear soaked face with soft, warming water.
They still search for and find the towel to dab my face dry before the tears soak it again.
My blind eyes cant even see my glasses but my steady hands always find them.
My mind shakes uncontrollably, my breath comes in painful sobs but my legs stand strong.
My hands dress me, ready for sleep.
My fingers turn on and off lights.
My legs guide me to bed.
My eyes always releasing their tears.
My hands take the bobble down and smooth my hair around my face.
They pull the covers over my body and hide me away.
Now i can cry into my pillow as my knees curl up to my chest, my arms covering my breaking heart. Protecting, stopping me from falling apart.
My mind maybe screaming, my heart feels as if its dieing but my body keeps going.
"There is always one part of you that can keep going."
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